I Love You....bee...but I cant to have you...

I've just completed to fast in a month before the Happy Raya is coming.....I tried to be stronger and stronger in order to force myself into fast....Yes I did it....I had fast for a whole month...I never take any food and drinks....but I've just started from 6 a.m untill 6.24pm..the I started to drinks and taking food....

Although it was so hard at the moment I fast, but I think it's worth if I fast for someone....someone really touching my soul and lmy ife....This is my bee...
maybe you're right, it was my fault to make you left me from behind. and this time, I am going to fast for you.. I love you bee, no matter what's going on..i Love you bee...it was a month a go I've never call my bee....I really miss you and listen from your sound...huhu... I do really miss you so much bee.....

Dunia Kiamat kpda Nick....

bee.....kalao da bee bca blog nie....sbab dee wat smua tu.....da lah kerana dee sedar....dee dah kehilangan bee wat segala2nya..... bila dee minta dee jumpa bee wat kali terakhir....tpi bee bilang nak bawa boyfriend baru bee.....

sebenarnya bee langsung x menghormati dee.....dee cuma da permintaan wat kali terakhir dgn bee.....tpi bee ckp cem tu dgn dee.....dlm kol lgi bee ckp cem orng lain...slama nie bee x pena ckp cem tu dgn dee....seolah2 dee menganggap dee sbgai brg sejak...... cuma permintaan kecil sejak...tpi bee wat segala2nya.....


Dee akn membeku semua kenangan yg manis antara dee dgn bee dlm ati, ingatan dan kehidupa dee.....walao pun bee x hargai kesemuanya drpada dee....dee trima jek.... :-( biar lah dee tanggung kesemuanya....drpda x dihargai....

kalo bee memilih kwn anu.... bee truskan jek lah.....dee mendoakan bee.... dan ingat hargai percintaan drpda kwn anu.... jgn pai tragedi mcam dee.....

Lebih baik panggil bee Nor.....dee Nick...

dlm ati dee........perkataan bee tetap wujud dan hidup selama2nya...........Dee tetap cintai bee..

Jaga diri...bila dee xda...bye....semoga Tuhan menjaga bee...dan memgkurniakan kesihatan yg baik kpda bee..dan harap bleh berjaya dlm kejayaan...... sbab hari nie bee da wat interview.....
dee akn sentiasa doakan bee......GOod bye....forever.....

bagaimana anda rasa sekiranya putus cinta ((( Broken Heart)))

Bayangkanlah bagaimana keadaan kawan kita apabila putus cinta dengan seseorang yang sangat dikasihinya…pasti kawan kita akan berasa kecewa dan tidak mungkin dia akan ketawa.... Kawan kita mungkin akan kurungkan diri berjam-jam di dalam bilik, lepas tu nangis macam bayi... tidak mahu diganggu sebab ingin tenangkan fikiran....

Kalaolah kawan kita membuat silap dengan kekasihnya, minta maaf daripada kekasihnya... tapi kawan akan tertanya-tanya “Bolehkah dia maafkan aku”? cubalah kalao kekasihnya maafkan, syukur. Kalao tidak, sudah nasib badan...

Kawan itu hanya akan menangis jika perkara itu benar-benar menyentak perasaan hatinya, tetapi apa pula perkara yang akan membuat hati lelaki tersentak ...? salah satu sebabnya ialah kehilangan kekasihnya tidak kiralah kekasih hati, ibu, isteri dan anak mahupun barang kesayangan yang bagai kekasihnya....

Jadi kepada lelaki/wanita di luar sana, jika ada lelaki yang sanggup mengalirkan air mata untuk anda, Hargainya...!!! Menangis di khalayak ramai pasti akan membuat hati lelaki tu malu besar terutama di hadapan kawan-kawannya... x macho langsung... dalah kena kutuk... malu lagi... siapa yang hendak tanggung, lainlah jika ada peristiwa yang benar-benar menyayat hati... Jangan sesekali memperkecil dan menganggap tindakan teman lelaki anda itu bodoh dan mengada-ngada! Jangan terperanjat jika ada lelaki yang sanggup menangis dan melutut di hadapanmu...

Hargai air mata seseorang lelaki(dee)

Bee yang membuktikannya kepada dee..... bee tidak lagi berminat sama dee.....dalam setiap hari, hanya masa tertentu sahaja bee akan message dee...iaitu lewat malam.. dan setiap hari message bee kpad dee tidak akan lebih daripada 5 message....kadang-kadang 2 hingga 3 jek...masih ingat pa yg bee tanya dee tentang bee.....tpi dee bilang nanti bee akan tahu sendiri... Jawapanya...bila bee x balas message dgn dee....dee paham akan pa yang bee sedang wat..... Jdi dee Cuma undurkan diri jek....daripada menambahkan beban bee...dan kandungan message bee seolah-olah xnak bermessage dee...1 hingga 2 baris....5 hingga 10 patah perkataan...

masih ingat time bee call dee.... bee marah dee bilangnya dee cem x mau ckp dgn bee....k lah bye lah... sbenarnya dee tertidu di ruang tamu... dee dah sakit selama semiggu, x sembuh2 lagi....Selesma.. bukan bee tahu jugakan...bee menanya dee tidu kah...dee bilang tidaklah...sebab nak ckp sma bee...tpi...pa yg terjadi...??? matikan handphone terus..langsung x hiraukan perasaan dee... bukannya dee x mau ckp...Cuma ...

The time I’am not message you, it doesn’t mean I’m not miss you...

The time I’am not call you, it doesn’t mean i’m not love you....

But it’s because.... you’re not mine already....You’re actually belong to someone else...

As usual I took out my handphone every day in school....as becoming muy routine...but all my efforts seemed all in vain....

Try to understand the lyric of the song....I’m Lost Without You by Delta Godreem

Maybe I’am not your real love....maybe you think that the time u and me just considered as Games..... but I can tell you that...Love is not a game...we all need to be responsible at all..... maybe you wont cry even a trickle of tear for me....and you’re not realized how’s my feeling for everyday..... You will never get to know ....seriously....

maybe u dont understand how did I feel for so long....maybe it doesn't mean anything to u....but what I can tell you is I always thinking your side....no matter what are you doing there...what you've done to me....I care you all the time......Seriously doing it...

kpda bee....orng yg penting dlm ati sya..

Kepada bee….
X kira pa2 yang tlah berlaku antara kita b’dua...dee jujur..dee xda marah dan perasaan benci dengan bee.. walau pa yg tlah bee lakukan... dee masih sayang dgn bee... dee btul sedih..nape bee wat cem tu dgn dee...pai ati wat nkal d blakang dee... bee x b’salah...segala2nya dee yang salah sendiri...biarlah dee tanggung semua nie..anggap jek lah dee ada knalan baru....

Stiap pgi, dee tunggu tau stiap stgah jam, dee kasi kluarkan hand phone dri pocket. Tengok da msg kah x...pi slama nie...langsung xda msg dee...pdahal stiap pgi bermsg dgn org lain..stiap mlm, bilang nak tidu, ngantuk. Tpi pa yg bee wat...b’r msg dgn org lain....

6 bulan tau, bkan panjang dn bkannya pendek...bis nape wat smua nie... dee tau, dee bkan golongan kaya, xda kreta, xda umah...smua xda...tpi dee masi blajar kan...bee yg uruh dee jdi cikgu... dah 2 blan lbih tau xteringin langsung nk jmpa dee...pai ari jdi dee pun bee x kisah..pai ati tau....>.<.. dee xda nkal tau d blakang bee..bis sapa yg wat hal skrng..nk terlerainya hubungan cinta kita....dee b’rasa malu sngt, bermuka tebal sngat..mrayu bee supaya truskan percintaan kita....
Xpalah bee...dee paham stuasi skrng dlm cinta tiga segi nie.... kalao bee rasa permulaan kita dalah atu kesilapan, dee memilih tarik diri....walaupun bee x hargai dee..tpi dlm ati dee.... dee tetap bersama dgn bee... dee mendoakan bee supaya bhgia dgn bdak bru tu pai ke akhir hayat.... dee minta maaf kpda bee....krna slama nie m’mbebankan bee..xdpt memenuhi hati bee...

Bee xsalah....Cuma..masa yg m’bawa dee berjumpa dgn bee....
masa yg m’hancurkan percintaan kita......

Kalao kita btul2 m’cintai s’seorang, kita xakn m’desak orng yg kita sayangi...

Kita sanggup wat pa sjak demi nk org yg kita sayangi bahagia dn gembira stiap masa

Bila kita gi tepi pantai letak psir d tpak tangan kita. Bila kita kuat2 mencengkamnya..psir akn t’himpit dn t’tekan lalu m’galir kesmuanya dri tapak tngan kita shingga bis..dee xnak m’desak bee....x nak m’lukai ati dee...

Sebaliknya, bila kita lpaskn tngan kita, psir tu akn mgalir keluar dgn gembira dan bahagia...skurang2 nya masi tertinggal sdkit psir di tas tpak tngan kita...m’buatnya sbgai kenangan yg terindah.... Lgu Cinta Terakhir dripda Aiman

mungkinkan terlerai tanpa ikatan...usah ragu dgn takdir...mungkin kta kan berbeza haluan...berakhirnya crita percintaan....sgalanya ketentuan TuHAN!

Trma kasih tas pengorbanan masa, wang dan cinta di atas dee....
dee akn mengingati smua crita yg kita lalui brsama... pa2 pun...dee tetap sayangi bee walau pa yg bee lakukan... smoga Tuhan memberkati dua insan yg baru bercinta...

what is Luv......I dun understand..

I was fucking downed today…. As usual, I woke up on 5.25a.m. I then jumped out of my bed and dashed to the washroom, iron my school uniform. Stubbing my toe in the process, I then grabbed my school bag and took a ride in the school bus.
Ring…. The bell rang, we headed to assemble. In the process, there were few weird and questions popping up my mind as I wondered what’s going on today..? At first, one of the girl screamed in the classroom liked seeing ghost…. OMG…. The classroom was an attention for everyone. At that particular jiffy, roars and sounds kept risen up.
Next, we heated up some of teachers, 1^st is Puan Zunaidah Zakaria our core curriculum, followed by our disciplinary master and last I got hair cut for that moment

At night, I used to check the called detail for my number. Then I registered for my bee… At first my bee wont to forward the password to me as she knew something is going wrong. At last, she forwarded the password to me that I used to log in her account. Out of my thinking, what I’ve seen was many alien numbers that is not belongs to me, but somebody…

Then I made a copy in my mini pen drive, questions kept thundering my mind as I was thinking. Did she could explain to me for all this things… when I was home; I dashed in front of my computer and turned it on. Then I started busy to check it all, there were few frequently numbers when my Love busy to send message but not me. Starting from the early morning my bee kept messaging on him. At the same time, every 30 minutes I put out my phone and gazed to the rectangle screen (hand phone). Unfortunately, I’ve never receive even a single message form my bee. She messaged to somebody but not me…

Every night, what my bee messaged me and said, “Good night I’m sleepy now” then I stopped to message her. Who knows, she continued message to the others. She was willing to sacrifice me everyday, every night. Then I started to realize, she is not belongs to me anymore. I called and let her to know all of these.

She asked me why I did it so on her and said thank you. I was so downed like the world crashing downed on my little heart. I was waiting her explanation… but she just kept it in silent. Tears started rolling down my cheek, I cried bitterly. I said, “How much I Love you, then how much I get hurt”

She told me everything as she was actually lying to me for so long. My bee met someone new, an Iban man. The guy is so kind to her, always brought her out for having food, tea and much more. Never is thinking, how it could happen on me…

She chooses to leave me behind and continue her new relationship. I don’t understand, more than half-year we’re staying together. But she is more likely to be someone else just around two months comparing to our 6 months relationship.

From that moment, Nick is death forever… because of love. I don’t understand what is actually loved…???? Death…..

4th January 2010 midnight...Everything is changed..!!

Why all these happened to me…??? Why my ayang likes to torture and hurts me…I know and I realized Nick(dear)is just a (kampung boy) staying in a kampung place named Tawau… It’s 500 km far away from my ayang…Tonight, I was crying… tears kept rolling down and touched down on the table when I was messaged my ayng…

On the 28 of December 2009, my ayang told me that I am still my ayang great boy friend . I was placed in heaven again after I read it in the message. It was so sweets, nice, beautiful and touched my heart and my soul. But now… bad things; dark and evil, Satan is against me by ruining my life again. My little hopes with my ayang… my sweets dream… Even now, I can’t imagine why my ayang still could make me cry…hurt…suffer…I’m not suppose to deserve it.It’s my 1^st Luv, I’d never Luv some liked this before… How great my ayang could make me cry… It was so sweets at first… Rul is the one who hang up my call and stopped to message without inform me… I even asked my little heart for so much time… was I doing something wrong…? I don’t think so. I’m so care about my ayang’s health… I always remind my ayang to have lunch and dinner on time, drive safe, and never take the red meat because of health problem.
My ayang dedicated a song to me “Cinta Terakhir” by Aiman. “Mungkinkan terputus di tengah jalan…Mungkinkan terlerai tanpa ikatan… Usah ragu dengan taktir… Mungkin kita kan berbeza haluan… Berakhirnya cerita percintaan…Segalanya ketentuan Tuhan…I was waiting a message, a call from someone, someone that can go through in my life… wondering if someone will sing this song with me…It’s my ayang… even there is a distance between our age…Cuma ajal sahaja yang boleh pisakan kita…dear cintai ayang lebih daripada dear cintai diri sendiri…

Giving up doesn’t always mean u’re weak…Sometimes it just means your strong enough to let go.

Salt makes me feel like...

Even now I still LuV my ayang......very much...very much......I cant believe my ayang went to k.L just to meet her boy friend...I am so suck.....and I hate myself by losing my ayang...what I've done.... am I wrong....??? Even now I cant find the real answer the main factor.....Last night, my Ayang broke in my dream again....My ayang told me she was so sad and upset...Is blur..and blur...

I messaged my ayang..and told me....shopping with her boyfriend.....What ....!!! I am just pretend like nothing..but I just hide it....and....!!!
It is not nice...not good....but what I can do....ther is nothing I can do....to my Ayang.....
Everyday, My ayang make the thought in my mind...and make a conclusion before I getting unconsciously Luv U Ayang.....no matter wherever go and whatever you do...please take very careful of yourself....Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.....Luv u Ayang....

I'm Lost Without You

14th December 2009, We'd broke.......totally broke.....I quited because my Luv said we will never be together again.....Amidst my heart is bleeding.......My Luv said that to me....My heart was thunder and booming with fear....I cried so much times..never appreciate from me...it was my ayang......she has a few thousands of admires.....Lastly it came into my life........it is inevitable from happens.......

Because of you......I ended everything..My future is colourful at 1st....but now.....it is decorated like Hell.......Because of u.....I even sacrificed everything......Just because of u.....what I had is just a ray of hope......a ray of Hope.....But u ruined it for everything...You always said I'm nt mature.....I even tried as hard to change myself to be more matured......Now.....Yes....I'm really matured....but what u give me is all about tears.....ashamed....and so damn much more.....

I even rather we never know each others....what you said take it very simple....simpler and simplest.......U re such a Judge....you never think the other feeling...you just go it with your way......never think the others....This is you........My 1st.....and will be my last in my life......anyhow.....I still Luv u........My 1st Luv.......ayang..... no word can describe my ayang....

I was so suck a few days later...bcoz of LuV

I keep trying to find my way and all I know is I'm lost without you I keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you. Baby I'm so lonely all the time. Everywhere I go, I get so confused your the only thing thats on my mind. I miss you more each day.......

I really want to make your day.....but you even locked your heart, never let anybody to get enter......what I need from you is a Key.... a key...only key that can brings me triumph over your heart wall.......U really don't understand me.....I am so confused everywhre I go.....Everytime the time I woke up.....The first thing in my mind is you.....only you......You raised me up when I cannot reach....U were my ears, when I couldn't hear....u re my everything.....now I so hard to live by watching u everyday are so unhappy......If I'm burdened u now..plz let's me know......I will disappear in front of you....I can sacrifice everthing juz for u to live in a happier life.......

a nite that changed my life into .......

On the 27th of November.....My life is getting more meaningful and so sweets like heaven.......We met at nite.....a place that belongs to you and me......Only you and me know the place that we had been.....
a night that you and me...U seem liked my angel and I am your Prince...only prince.... When I turned around, u kissed me suddenly, and hugs me tightly and so was me.. The feeling was like heaven....a real love that we can go it through in our life eternally.... It cannot be described by words, but it could be imagined if u re using your real heart to feel it. Surely you will get it... My ayang said almost 100% my Ayang told me about her....I love my ayang very much... We slept over a night till the next day...I left my ayang the next day from the place that only u and me.....My ayang went to Sipadan Island....

At last, I couldn't imagine the time my ayang told me on the way to airport Tawau....I cried bitterly...I hate these feeling, is liked a mountain of stone crushed over my heart and broke into million pieces...... I was so suffering like hell and my eyes were reddened by (YOU), tears kept rolling down over my cheek...but my ayang said," please let me go back". I just answered ok reluctuntly..because I realized I cant make it change.... It was 29th November 2009, 7.39pm my ayang stepped into the flight, preparing to depart....8.40 pm, my ayang arrived at the airport.....

30th of November, I thought I am the blissful one in the World as my ayang shows a bit change the way how she treats me.......maybe I am thinking that lastly, my ayang could let me get into her(YOUR) life.....It was so nice and romance you know..My ayng kept messaging me...1st of December 2009, My ayang messaged me early in the morning and said that, I have stomach-ache and caused diarrhea". Plus....my ayang told me it was so painful and couldn't get a stand.....Oh My GOD....I was so frightening and nervous about my ayng...I wanted to beside my ayang at the time as if possible..... Then I asked my ayang to have a visit with doctor....Then she is ok the next...I just advised my ayang to have some porridge and the salty egg..Never to have the greasy food....."Only brand water is not greasy here', my ayang answered me.....

If u notice this message that is only for my ayang...plz......always remember what I always said to u.....and what makes trust and Believe........I 've learned it from u....LUV u ayang.....

Karaok.........time...@@

Here is my frenx...Kaivun....with his gorlz frnzsss...

we were so happy at night by headed to the Karaok club.....It is nice rite......going to the Ktv club, playing like kids, sing liked the stars hahha.....damn rock in my life....

In lives.....we do need to fulfill our leisure time....likes go to clubbing, get drunk....dances like the monkey....It is me....@2@ .the real Nicke....@@@ I like to be the real of me....I wont care how the other's perception to me...some of them will juz say I am juz wasting my time and my pocket money...So what..!!! There is nothing we can expect what will happen at the next seconds......who's know will be the End Of the World.....am i rite...??? heheh.....so please........

be the real of You...like the real Nick....heheh

My frenz......Ena....

wat a super sweetssss sounds....

Nickie is Singing there...haha

Korean Guys....match with Korean model.....haha

My life is nothin and there is no reason to live anymore....

today was a sunny day.....it looks cool to me......but When I am sitting in front of the compt.....I am so happy.....and wanna get access to the Internet as fast as I can.....

Not long after that....my unique XXX is online.....I am so happy and nudged XXX.....but all and all.....xxx asked me to leave xxx....I was so up sad bcoz of xxx.........bcoz of me....xxx fights with couple........oh my God......what is happens........in my paradise................What I suppose to do......Don knoe......xxx said....fight with couple is like hell......I even could fell it....

I cannot imagine how could I leave my angel to others.........

I am so sorry.......to both of you.......

Love is blind.....
if u luv someone, but your love doesn't pay attention in u..... not interest in u...How do u feel....?? and yr love forced u to do something that u don want to be, is like ending your life.....u have no reason to live anymore.......That is wat I feel now........ and is like telling a whore that she cannot fuck again............If this is wat you want to be......then nothing I can do.....the only thing I can do is Doa kan kamu berdua.....

10th October 2009

Wat all we have done is like shit.....................early in the morning I took a ride on my grandpa's car to school...............


and I was the 1st one who was there followed by the others...................We juz gathered in tuckshop for so long..............juz bcoz for there so called Raya time...????? don knoe wht the hell it was...........thinking juz wasting my mother's fucking time.............

here we took some pictures......before the jamuan.....

Nickie.......@@lol...

FariedaH........My friend....the buzziesssss one in our class....

Nick_zai........yeh...yeh...

My frenz...Nir..sexyyyyy....

cool............girls......ladies is not only preety...they are quite naughty like boy.....haha

They deserved for that....everyone is fallen on the floor......hahahaha wat a bunch of naughty girls....

Our belove papa cikgu Azmi.......and my pig dog friends..hahhaa 6 Rendah Aspirasi......2009 is an active class....wat a hustle and bustle class....everyone like to eat in class.....curi makan.....hahaha

A bunch of Monkey Stars....wakakaa

LoVe style.....hhihi

Sometimes I am really don knoe why the girls like to do it..... and now I realized bcoz this is their style...and maybe their hobby @@!!!

Hilda Kimsin......Our ;;;dai Ka jie;;;

wat a fuckiNg nigHt.........

It was 2 night the power cut continuously........... Jesus.....
I am not suppose to deserve it............at the midnight the thunders were booming fiercely.....
My God......I was lying on the sofa....til half-past 4 early in the morning.....bcoz of my so called assignment....hahaha I was lying for all night...without finish my homework......hahahah

I packed all things dashed to my room..........Jumped to my bed and continued my dreams hahahha

5.28 I woke up reluctantly......I stood over the wall for a few minutes before changing my school uniform......hahaha

before I step out from the Auto gate......The chickenshit dog dashed out without look at me.......
I asked (wong zai)dog......he ignored from.... my God.....The school bus arrived parked in front of me....I was so embarrassed, as I was the attention from the school bus.......Mummy.....help.....hahha
Fortunately....my dog is returned home at last.....
wat a awful day .........

@@...Raya Time....@@

On the 22th of September, it was Raya ke-3.........hahhaa
everybody is liked a kid which wanna get (Duit Raya) frm others....for me I joined a group of my so called Barbarian friend (My classmates) to celebrate Raya....It was so ridiculous.....we rented a Bus....a mini Bus frm home to home......amidst the Raya, we headed to our organizer, "Faridah"s home 1st then followed by Andy...Doa.......and more........

It was so rock when we headed to our Teacher Sobrie home....his home is crowded like a ikan satin...hhaha and the worst thing is there was a lasy warned us and said @@@ JANGAN kasih hbis Curry saya@@....shit...it was a joke i think....heheh

well...well.......Hey Tell me anything happen when u were Beaufort or k.k......If u noticed this message....Mizz u ..Nickie.... I mean the k.k M g

It's me......Nickie cute guy hahaha

My frnz Vincent

C Yusuf......Budak Oc....hahaha

@@...Mr. Ng and me.......@@

Fizah......!!!!

Fizah and Nickie @ Nick

Faridah......@ Oeganizer

Rombongan Raya....hahahha

@@ Someone who is standing a big space in my Heart...@@

On the 16th of September, it was at night, a damn full of chickenshit, don know wat i suppose to do to fill up my time.............time whizzed past as I was sitting in front of my compt, doing for nothing..........haha.

Out of the blue, I saw my wonderful friend(Chatting friend...)..juz a unique friend....in my life.......I knew 'kim' in the net....and something is XXX looks like chinese and maybe mix.........but I was definitely wrong that kim is Malay plus Brunei......haha...We chatted for something ridiculous haha....I even forced XXX to answer me a hypersensitive question....heheh..but lastly XXX did it well in answering me.....tat was so rock in my life...But unfortunately, I am too late........kim is belongs to somebody else.....Iam so upset like hell.........it makes me fell liked the whole World came crashing down at me.......tears stinging in my eyes....

XXX asked me to keep updating my blog... as if....heheeh I cant promise it......but to u..... I wil do it....hehhe

The 1st time I knew u, u stoled my visual

The 2nd time I chatted with u, u even tried to stand a big space in my little Heart

No word can say, u skyjack (hiJaCK) my mind as yr image is lingering in my mind.....

Every second, Every minute, ........

That is for sure..........no joke..........

Remember....there is no gap between us...

I love u Eternally...........

U can stop to be mine...........

BUt u cant stop I Love u so damn much as I thought u re the most beautiful Kim that I've ever seen.....

Here is my pic juz 4 u..............

wirtten by

Nickie, Nick @ Nicholas

Wat a boring day in my life....

The morning sun-shoned my still shut eyelids...Annoyed...It was noisy and bustle as shit outside my house...Never thinking,I woke up at 10 am..Early in the morning, I need to wake up.SHIT...!!!It was saturday...wher I could escape frm waking up around 5 am before I dashed to school by my only school bus.....5 am to 12++ pm..Every Monday to Friday and become a routine in my pathetic life....

I left my bed reluctuntly...Not knowing whatelse to do....I turned on my compt, watching some movie...Listened frm the soNgs...it was so boring riGht...??

I recalled something wat my friends said....what @@Ngai Diao@@ Zha Dao...Lin C....
all these is come frm my friends sky-pig ..ran.ran...and two of them like a couple, a team..

and my Geo's teachers one is physical and and another is humankind teacher.....I admit that I do like two of them....they have they own teaching skills in class....no word can say I appreciate from them.....

the terrible things during the class lesson is the Pengajian Am....it is about the genaral knowledge or in other word History....fucK....I hate D subject.....

I am wondering D REunioN day

Irene_Lee, Irish, Mona, Mr.Yee and me...of course they are my science and math teachers...Miss Hong and Miss yap

here are my classmates and teachers....... Not knowing what else to say.....

After spM they will be gone by D winds.....some of them will go to other countries

to pursue their further study..N some of them still staying in the middle of traffic light

whether go straight, turn left or turn right or even step back.....it is ridiculous.....

ALl  of these are happened around me........well here are my classmates..P.d friends...

(Pig dOg friends)...

Cikgu Lo.....

One thing that I couldn't deny myself...She is really a nice teacher
responsible,Loving,kind even she is not really cute but mayb mutual...right..
she made me to change my life....
thank you...Teacher Lo...

@@Cikgu mazlan.....@@

he looks like a little boy....he is really nice...the way how he talked

is really funny.....All of us felt awesome and fantastic when we stayed together

my friends.......
Dickie.....Me..Oickie...Siong Jian..N dai lou...ka sheng...

My love to you is Eternity....

You captured me with a stare

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Your cuter and warm smile was still lingering in my mind

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You lifted me up when I couldn't reach

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You stole my concentration from the Holy heart of mine

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Darkness engulfed as if the presence of you

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but your present estimate the loneliness of me

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I was placed in this planet to meet you

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Remember, My love to you is Eternally

Something that is awesome in my life...

It was a very hot, stifling night and I could not sleep a wink. So I decided to kill my time by loitering in the Internet. It was 1 October 2008, I have met a lot of new chatting friends in the net. They were really thinking what I am thinking for... Today was a special days in my whole life. They seemed quite naughty at all and maybe a little horny...heheh.. to say the least. In the middle of chatting, they tried to hint me something that I won't to be done in my lifestyle... Firstly, I was really great to spend up all my leisure time just for chatting with them as well in Internet.

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We were share about our lifestyle to one another and they are really open minded people....that for sure...^_^ In the middle of conversation, we also turned on our web cam. We have chatted a lot of nonsense things as "Where is the passion in your life" he asked me. In no time at all, I answered "Home, in bed". Then we laughed as in Heaven. Being there friend is awesome because they really kind to me as how the way they talked and chatted with me.

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They even taught me a lot of Foreign English slang such as the rude words. Is great.... They encouraged me to be more open minded but not to narrow my mind. They asked me to do something that is definitely not allowed by the Holy Jesus Christ, but I did....heheh.. Well, we were having fun in the Internet...

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Surely, now I'm more open minded person, easy going and everything that could be awesome to me... They said I have a cute and warm smile, especially my eyes a if....But however, I denied for that at all. "I am not " I denied for their sweet words. All and all, these excellent incident will never put out my mind as thought they seemed nice.

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Last but not least, all I can say is being their friend is great...heheh..^_<>