On the 28 of December 2009, my ayang told me that I am still my ayang great boy friend . I was placed in heaven again after I read it in the message. It was so sweets, nice, beautiful and touched my heart and my soul. But now… bad things; dark and evil, Satan is against me by ruining my life again. My little hopes with my ayang… my sweets dream… Even now, I can’t imagine why my ayang still could make me cry…hurt…suffer…I’m not suppose to deserve it.It’s my 1st Luv, I’d never Luv some liked this before… How great my ayang could make me cry… It was so sweets at first… Rul is the one who hang up my call and stopped to message without inform me… I even asked my little heart for so much time… was I doing something wrong…? I don’t think so. I’m so care about my ayang’s health… I always remind my ayang to have lunch and dinner on time, drive safe, and never take the red meat because of health problem.
My ayang dedicated a song to me “Cinta Terakhir” by Aiman. “Mungkinkan terputus di tengah jalan…Mungkinkan terlerai tanpa ikatan… Usah ragu dengan taktir… Mungkin kita kan berbeza haluan… Berakhirnya cerita percintaan…Segalanya ketentuan Tuhan…I was waiting a message, a call from someone, someone that can go through in my life… wondering if someone will sing this song with me…It’s my ayang… even there is a distance between our age…Cuma ajal sahaja yang boleh pisakan kita…dear cintai ayang lebih daripada dear cintai diri sendiri…Giving up doesn’t always mean u’re weak…Sometimes it just means your strong enough to let go.
