Salt makes me feel like...

Even now I still LuV my ayang......very much...very much......I cant believe my ayang went to k.L just to meet her boy friend...I am so suck.....and I hate myself by losing my ayang...what I've done.... am I wrong....??? Even now I cant find the real answer the main factor.....Last night, my Ayang broke in my dream again....My ayang told me she was so sad and upset...Is blur..and blur...

I messaged my ayang..and told me....shopping with her boyfriend.....What ....!!! I am just pretend like nothing..but I just hide it....and....!!!
It is not nice...not good....but what I can do....ther is nothing I can do....to my Ayang.....
Everyday, My ayang make the thought in my mind...and make a conclusion before I getting unconsciously Luv U Ayang.....no matter wherever go and whatever you do...please take very careful of yourself....Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.....Luv u Ayang....

I'm Lost Without You

14th December 2009, We'd broke.......totally broke.....I quited because my Luv said we will never be together again.....Amidst my heart is bleeding.......My Luv said that to me....My heart was thunder and booming with fear....I cried so much times..never appreciate from me...it was my ayang......she has a few thousands of admires.....Lastly it came into my life........it is inevitable from happens.......

Because of you......I ended everything..My future is colourful at 1st....but now.....it is decorated like Hell.......Because of u.....I even sacrificed everything......Just because of u.....what I had is just a ray of hope......a ray of Hope.....But u ruined it for everything...You always said I'm nt mature.....I even tried as hard to change myself to be more matured......Now.....Yes....I'm really matured....but what u give me is all about tears.....ashamed....and so damn much more.....

I even rather we never know each others....what you said take it very simple....simpler and simplest.......U re such a Judge....you never think the other feeling...you just go it with your way......never think the others....This is you........My 1st.....and will be my last in my life......anyhow.....I still Luv u........My 1st Luv.......ayang..... no word can describe my ayang....

I was so suck a few days later...bcoz of LuV

I keep trying to find my way and all I know is I'm lost without you I keep trying to face the day I'm lost without you. Baby I'm so lonely all the time. Everywhere I go, I get so confused your the only thing thats on my mind. I miss you more each day.......

I really want to make your day.....but you even locked your heart, never let anybody to get enter......what I need from you is a Key.... a key...only key that can brings me triumph over your heart wall.......U really don't understand me.....I am so confused everywhre I go.....Everytime the time I woke up.....The first thing in my mind is you.....only you......You raised me up when I cannot reach....U were my ears, when I couldn't hear....u re my everything.....now I so hard to live by watching u everyday are so unhappy......If I'm burdened u now..plz let's me know......I will disappear in front of you....I can sacrifice everthing juz for u to live in a happier life.......

a nite that changed my life into .......

On the 27th of November.....My life is getting more meaningful and so sweets like heaven.......We met at nite.....a place that belongs to you and me......Only you and me know the place that we had been.....
a night that you and me...U seem liked my angel and I am your Prince...only prince.... When I turned around, u kissed me suddenly, and hugs me tightly and so was me.. The feeling was like heaven....a real love that we can go it through in our life eternally.... It cannot be described by words, but it could be imagined if u re using your real heart to feel it. Surely you will get it... My ayang said almost 100% my Ayang told me about her....I love my ayang very much... We slept over a night till the next day...I left my ayang the next day from the place that only u and me.....My ayang went to Sipadan Island....

At last, I couldn't imagine the time my ayang told me on the way to airport Tawau....I cried bitterly...I hate these feeling, is liked a mountain of stone crushed over my heart and broke into million pieces...... I was so suffering like hell and my eyes were reddened by (YOU), tears kept rolling down over my cheek...but my ayang said," please let me go back". I just answered ok reluctuntly..because I realized I cant make it change.... It was 29th November 2009, 7.39pm my ayang stepped into the flight, preparing to depart....8.40 pm, my ayang arrived at the airport.....

30th of November, I thought I am the blissful one in the World as my ayang shows a bit change the way how she treats me.......maybe I am thinking that lastly, my ayang could let me get into her(YOUR) life.....It was so nice and romance you know..My ayng kept messaging me...1st of December 2009, My ayang messaged me early in the morning and said that, I have stomach-ache and caused diarrhea". Plus....my ayang told me it was so painful and couldn't get a stand.....Oh My GOD....I was so frightening and nervous about my ayng...I wanted to beside my ayang at the time as if possible..... Then I asked my ayang to have a visit with doctor....Then she is ok the next...I just advised my ayang to have some porridge and the salty egg..Never to have the greasy food....."Only brand water is not greasy here', my ayang answered me.....

If u notice this message that is only for my ayang...plz......always remember what I always said to u.....and what makes trust and Believe........I 've learned it from u....LUV u ayang.....